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| OK SO I HAD THE SURGERY...IT HURT. TWO WORDS MORPHINE, AND VICODIN. WOOHOO! ANYWAYS THANKS TO ALL MY VISITORS AND ALL THE HEALING PRAYERS. NOT TALKING FOR 4 DAYS WAS A BIT FUN, BUT KNOWING I HAD TO GO TO YGC YOUTH GUIDANCE CENTER TO DO AN AGAPE RETREAT I KNEW HAD TO START TRAINING MY VOICE AGAIN, PLUS THURSDAY AT WORK GOT HECTICK AND I HAD TO MOTIVATE MY CO-WORKERS. WELL TODAY IS SATURDAY I TIRED TO BLOG YESTERDAY BUT FORGOT MY PASSWORD. ANYWAYS FRIDAY WAS CRAZY TRYING TO FINISH PREPARATIONS FOR THE RETREAT, AND MAKING SURE I DIDN'T FORGET ANYTHING. SO I SHOWED UP TO THIS CENTER THAT I DRIVE BY ALL THE TIME AND NEVER KNEW IT WAS THERE.YGC IS UNDER THE 22/5/57 INTERCHANGE HIDDEN ON HESPERIAN WAY. IT LOOKED A BIT SCARY BUT AS I GOT BUZZED IN AND PARKED MY CAR I NOTICED SECURITY WAS NOT THAT TIGHT, A GOOD SIGN. OH YEA I WAS ALSO SCARED BECAUSE I KNEW NO ONE ON THE TEAM, AND DIDN'T WANT SOMETHING TO HAPPEN SO JOHN WAS GOING TO GET ON LAST MINUTE BUT THEY COULD NOT GRANT HIM CLEARANCE IN TIME. SO I WAS ALONE, WHICH I GUESS TURNED OUT TO BE GOOD, FORCING ME TO MEET KNEW PEOPLE. AFTER GIVING UP MY DRIVERS LICENSE TO TRADE FOR A BADGE I WAS ESCORTED TO THE JIM WHERE THE RETREAT WOULD BE HELD. THESE KIDS WERE EXTREMELY WELL MANNERED AND DISCIPLINE. NO ONE GETS OUT OF LINE, AND WHEN THEY WALK THEY WALK TWO SINGLE FILE LINES.AFTER SETTING UP THE GYM WE WENT OVER THE SCHEDULE. THEN IT HIT ME, OH MAN I HAVE TO SHOW CHRIST'S UNCONDITIONAL LOVE TO EVERYONE....NO PROBLEM? LUCKILY THEY SET ME UP AT A TABLE WITH 5 GIRLS AND TWO OTHER LADY COUNSELORS. I FOUND MYSELF AT THE BEGGINING OF MANY RETREATS TRYING TO BREAK THE ICE WITH THE CANDIDATES. TIME FLEW BY AS WE LISTENED TO THE TALKS FOLLOWED BY EXCERSISES. EXTREMELY POWERFUL DAY! SATURDAY, WOKE UP LATE TODAY ABOUT AN HOUR. ALMOST RAN OUT WITH NO PANTS. LUCKILY THE RETREAT STARTED LATER AND I WAS NOT LATE. I HAD STAYED UP TO MAKE MORE PALANCAS KIND OF FELT THE NEED. WELL TIME FLEW, AS IT ALWAYS DOES WHEN YOUR HAVING FUN. THERE WERE AWESOME SKITS, VERY POWERFUL, AND THE MUSIC WAS OFF THE HOOK. THE THEME SONG WAS LOVE THE LORD, GOOD SONG. MY FAVORITE EXERCISE WAS PRAYING OVER THEM, THE HOLY SPIRIT WAS DEFINITELY THERE. THIS WEEKEND WAS SO MUCH DIFFERNT FROM ANY OTHER WEEKEND I HAVE BEEN ON. THESE KIDS CAME COMPLETELY ON THIER OWN WILL, HENCE THE LEVEL OF SURRENDER WAS INSPIRING. THE PALANCA TALK WAS POWERFUL, A SOLDIER OF CHRIST NAMED MANUEL OUT OF BAKERSFIELD WITH HIS BROTHER WROTE AND PRODUCED A SONG FOR HIS TALK, AND THEY LOVED THE PALANCAS, THANKS SANDY AND ERICA. AS WELL AS EVERYONE THAT PRAYED YOUR PRAYERS WERE TRULY FELT. OH MAN AND THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEKEND, A YOUTH WAS JUST BAPTISED, AND I WAS ALLOWED TO WITNESS HIS FIRST HOLY COMMUNION. HE LOOKED LIKE A KID IN A CANDY STORE. THERE WAS ALSO AN AWESOME NORBERTINE FATHER THAT SAVED MASS AND SHARED A REALLY POWERFUL STORY WITH US. WELL TOMORROW WE END WITH MASS. OH YEA THIS IS CRAZY BUT FIRST WAS CURSILLO, THEN MAMI BASED SEARCH OFF OF CURSILLO, THIS AGAPE RETREAT IS BASED OFF OF SEARCH! WICKED | | |
| Lazyness,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,I started this xanga account months ago, why? Well I was planning to log my accounts while staying at the Catholic Worker, but that did not go as planned. I am very dissapointed with myself because I could not keep this journal to date. Sure I got some but I guess that was when I was to the point of pulling out my hair from frustration, maybe thats why Patrick wears a hat? So while staying at the C Dub (catholic worker) I noticed my clothes getting a bit tight, hmmm wonder why? Well I guess I put on some weight there, causing the beggining of my sleep apnea...a horrible time. No matter how much I slept it wasn't enough. Some days I felt like a zombie, and not only that but you all know how I was snoring...sorry. I would get hurt when others would talk about it not knowing that they were just trying to help me. However finally taking the advice of others I went to see the doctor and what do ya know everyone was right. So next step Doc requests I go onto the CPAP sleep machine. At first and it took some getting used to, and it still feels a bit wierd. I guess because it pumps oxygen I am supposed to breath in, but its a bit hard to breath out. But woohooo the sleep it gives my is amazing. I wake up everynight like i've been asleep for years. Its wierd though no matter what time i got to sleep I wake up feeling well rested and full of energy. Weather if its 6 or 8 hours of sleep I get I wake up feeling great. So what troubles me is that when I went back to see Doc he said that he wants to CUT out my tonsils and file my soft back plate (a piece in the back of my throat). So he tells me that the surgery would need to be performed on a Thursday and that Friday, Saturday, Sunday and maybe Monday would be need to recover. He also mentioned that some make it back to work by Monday that is if the pain goes down. He also tells me that this is one of the most painful surgery's. He did not seem like he was joking. The surgery has been approved by my insurance, and they want to do it quick. I aint going to put up a front i'ma a wuss I don't want him to cut out my tonsils, I'll cry...maybe. Anyways I have pushed the surgery back to November. Kathy says I can eat all the ice cream I want so I told her to cut out her tonsils instead. | | |
| So her name is Debra, I guess I do get easily irritated someitmes while in the yard trying to take care of everyones needs so they can get to bed. I'm not sure what it was last night, but I was not feeling myself. I was running the yard, and Dwight and Leaia had retired for the evening I think Patrick was out. Well I went dwon stairs and it hit me, like white on rice! The stench was overwhelming actually I think that I threw up and swallowed it. Debra on many occassions of drunken spells soils herself. I mean it wasn't just number 1 guys.
Many times I have heard of this fortunately I had never had to deal with it ...until that night. She had obviously been drinking the smell of Vodka lingered into the combination of human fesces and urine. I flipped and could not bear it running to the other side of the yard to steal a gasp of fresh air I consulted Maggie (Seriously one of the hardest workers I know, she runs the yard, and in my book a Catholic Worker!) about the situation she seemed to find it humorous that my eyes had been watering. She then informed me that Dwight had instructed out wonderful guest that she had to take a shower, and Leaia later seconded that notion to her. I mean come on folks a shower seemed like a chore until we were like 13 ...well you would think one would grow out of it especially when covered in your own makings! Anyways so I then approached her and reinstated the requests of the former Catholic Workers, she seemed to be responding fairly well until I walked away and she acted like I said nothing to begin with. Hmmm so step it up, I then strongly requested that she take a shower, and that it was not only to her benefit but to the others that live here. She then seemed to accept the situation and decided to wait for a shower..Now on a normal basis I wouldn't but I could not take it anymore so I tried to give her a front of the line pass, all I had to do was make her wait in lone, and everyone took off running. Awesome 1 down and its when 1 thing gets done that 4 others pop up. So I started tending to the needs of others.
When it was about 8 o'clock and hour since i've smelled Debra it hit me. Papa John approached and reported her failure to take a shower. That was it I snapped...walking over to her holding my nose i heard Paula telling her off for using the blankets and not taking a shower first, Debra said that she was tired and that it would be done in the morning. I wanted to drag her out of the back gate...but unfortunately forgiveness is rent, so i had to re-think my strategy. I then gave her the two easiest choices take a shower or take a hike. She then seemed to want to take the shower but I was wrong, she walked through the opened gate into the darkened alley and began screaming obsinities at me. I then proceeded to throw her the soild blankets she was using and lock the gate. Sitting on the step that night I felt guilty..was I wrong for throwing her out? So many times driving around the nieghborhood have I seen her in her wheel chair downing a bottle of alcohol. And everyone always tells me how she gets so drunk that she never makes it to the rest room. Forgiveness is rent! Hmmm I still think about this one I pray for her but I dunno it was a hard one. Thanks
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| She crazy man! She expects you to finish her sentences when no one even knows what shes talking about! I swear she use to live in the backyard and talk to herself. Usually I wouldn't care but her outfits are so like fugly. They're those one color suits that old people wear. I mean honestly I think old people are cool, but she like has a grudge against us because were getting it better than she had it, its not our fault! Then f thats not bad enough the class is full of fresh fish from highschool, taking the class because they figure that hey i'm mexican/ chicano, and I know my art histroy. Man what a bunch of shmoe's!Wow I know i'm Catholic but this lady needs to get mugged! AHHHHH
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| Hello people, it has been quite awhile since my first entry, guess I have been busy. Hmm I think its been like a few months. Anyways still at the Catholic Worker, I got a new room, but I wish I was still in my old room, because the reason for my new room sucks. Lets see what can I tell you guys hmm I have decided to continue my stay at the Catholic Worker for another year. I think I decided this mostly to back up Patrick here at the house, but also with his new Kasupe ministry (Kasupe.org). Anyways yea there have been sopme very interesting moments in the yard, most funny, but some were sad. A woman named Henrieta has left our house. PAtrick had to take her to the hospital once, and she came back. But we found her unconcious and she went to the hospital again. I hate to be mean but she doesn't look well. Oh yea and we found a huge turd in the shower, Patrick grabbed it with his barehands!! Ahahah just playing he was wearing gloves. But it was nasty, made me a little mad too. Its like hey guys this is your house too ya know. Oh yea and if you guys look at my photos I put a few in of some kids. theres a pic of a baby in a stroller her name is Audry, I swear this girl can break my arm, she wieghs in at like 25 pounds! Then the young fella with the glasses on is Steven they call him fatso boy, but he doesn't unbderstand. This kid gets into trouble all over the yard, he eats anything he can get his hands on, and throws anything he can lift. But I think hes a cool kid kinda reminds me of myself. Then I put a picutre of me with Fr. Anthony who some of us met at a Patritians meeting. He said that he was going to send us scapulars but he hasn't...i'm not calling him a liar, maybe he's just busy. Anyways thats it for now maybe when I finish my homework i'll give you some more.
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